I asked the GP for input about coming off medication. I wanted to know if he had any experience with people who recover from schizophrenia. He said in some people the psychosis just burns itself out. Some people come off their medication successfully under close supervision, but usually just temporarily. I find this incredibly depressing. The medication effects the way I think. Can you, dear reader change the way you think? You think you can? Well, I ask you: why can a sufferer of psychosis not come to understand their illness and – change the way they think – so they no longer need the 'prosthesis', medication represents for the mind to help it retain touch with reality.
I have been on a high recently, not manic, just positive. I don't think this doctor really understands.
I split hairs with him over whether schizophrenia is a disease or a condition, because a disease indicates a biological process of decline, whereas a condition refers to a state of relationship between the mind and reality.
He talked about blood pressure medication that people can come off. If conditions change – lose weight, exercise, eat better. Why could not psychosis resolve itself? Chronic. My life is a tragedy. He didn't want to hear my 'Windhorse' thesis, and suggested I just better do what my psychiatrist says. I joked "It could be my liver". He abruptly indicated the appointment was over. Stigma is a terrible thing.

On the way home I was victim of mild road rage from a guy in a white ute. He was menacing and slurring. I wondered if I had somehow attracted this by daring to challenge the status quo. Reactionaries will respond if the balance is threatened, even if the balance involves miserable aimlessness and enforced submission in 'deserving' people. Try not to mix up sin and madness, the two are different.
We could outlaw war, but then where would be the ultimate recourse for challenging sustained injustices?